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Girl on Trike by Barbara Campbell Avanti Press

I am keeping my leg and foot still today.  The pain is sometimes still fierce and I have learned that if I use heat, elevation, and stillness each day we heal by degrees and breath work is more relieving. This is the 4th time I have just needed to sit it out.  This is the 12th day of no knee pain.

As a man thinketh, so is he. Proverbs 23:7

I am having considerable difficulty with BEING still.  Even when I am reading a book, I get up and DO something every 2 hours to move my body, rest my eyes and refresh my mind.  I miss my three mile walk in the mornings.  When I am cooking, I stand for short bursts and then sit down on the stool to stir and blend.  I have watched several movies in order to escape into some other mindset.  I have made lists of the cupboards to clean and the tasks that are not at hand but must be accomplished.  I played a card game and Sudoku on my computer.  I am awake and I just feel a strong need to be DOING.

I’m just thinkin’ that I should be DOING something and accomplishing more.  I have one friend who does a whole month of posts for her blog in one afternoon.  I’m just thinkin’ I would enjoy my summer if I did that too and I just need to get DOING.   I am feeling guilty about just staring out the window and watching the trees sway in the wind and the gulls play in the sky.  Why if I was at the beach, I would be looking up from my book and doing just that same gazing and not feeling these feelings.  I would be DOING relaxation away from home and walking, tipping rocks so the crabs come running out from under, and exploring…

The sole purpose of human existence is to kindle a light in the darkness of mere being ~Car Jung

I am DOING the work of healing this BEING and while I am feeling the heat and raising foot I just need to BE.
To BE careful,
to BE content,
to BE worthy,
to BE.
This is enough.

I am thinking I need to take this time to celebrate BEING and rejoice and be glad in it. Do you ever pause in your DOING to think about BEING?   Do you kindle a light?

Looking forward to your comments

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19 Responses to “Thinking”

  1. vered | Blogger for Hire Says:

    I’m not very good at doing nothing. I used to be much better at it when I was younger, and I actually miss it very much. Maybe when the kids leave the house and I have more time? One can hope. :)

    Patricia Reply:

    vered,
    I am getting much better about just being, but I have been hyperactive to be busy and appear busy all of my life. When the kids are home there is just so much to do.

    I think this has been a great lesson that pain has taught me

  2. Laurie Buchanan Says:

    Patricia –

    I’m going to point you back to a post I did on Doing vs. Being http://holessence.wordpress.com/2011/03/08/do-be-do-be-do/.

    In my experience lots of do, do, do, do = a pile of (well, you get the idea)…

    Patricia Reply:

    Laurie,
    I love your do dew! Thank you
    And Congratulations on the book

    I have to write today, so I will check out your link post as soon as I am able Thank you

  3. suzen Says:

    Hi Patricia,
    Sounds to me like you are as bad as I am about thinking. Way too much thinking. Thinking about doing. I chastise myself and am good for a few days, but my journal writing gives me away. So many times I say “I think this” and “I think that”. So air-headed really with all this thinking. I feel best when I just BE. Do Be a Do Be……….or something :)
    Hugs
    SuZen

    Patricia Reply:

    suzen,
    Do bee Do Bee dew!
    Thanks for you good words…and making me smile.

    I just do not want to grow old in my chair, but do want to give up that pressure feeling.

  4. Talon Says:

    Whenever something happens in life that forces me (against everything inside me) to sit still and try not to stress over NOT doing, I remember this Thoreau quote:

    “Health requires this relaxation,
    The aimless life,
    This life in the present”

    and I feel better. I hope you bounce back quickly, Patricia.

    Patricia Reply:

    Talon,
    I used that quote in my master’s thesis thank you so much for the reminder

    I am just feeling like I have to not keep pushing myself so hard – I am so intense and so driven. I must slow down my living because time is not working to my advantage right now :)

  5. Chris Edgar Says:

    Hi Patricia, I’m sorry to hear your knee is hurting. I can relate to feeling guilty about “not accomplishing anything” in a given moment, even though, at a deeper level, the purpose of all the time I spend “doing” various projects is really to support the time I spend “being” (e.g., if I make enough money to support myself, then I can have some time to relax). I think addiction to activity for its own sake is very widespread and I’m glad you’re pointing it out.
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    Patricia Reply:

    Chris,
    I was trained to do 10 things at the same time and to prove my worth be busy, busy, busy doing my very best.

    It is extremely hard to sit still or be down for the count and yet I can see where it is helping me heal at the same time.

    Just to feel worthy of being is a very difficult task but important

  6. Hiten Says:

    Hi Patricia,

    This was a very interesting point. I can definitely relate to the feeling of guilt of not doing something when in reality there is nothing wrong with just relaxing. I think we can use such moments wisely, as just another sign that we should seize the moment to just be.

    Patricia Reply:

    Hiten,
    Thanks for you comment and coming on by.

    Relaxing the thinking brain seems to be a crucial skill to learn in this very fast paced world we live in and I really must practice this skill as I am very hard on myself and that seems to stop the creative juices and potentials from flowing

    Patricia Reply:

    Hiten,
    I thought your recent post about anxiety was very good and your site is quite amazing – People with Celiac Disease often have quite a few problems with anxiety issues
    Thanks for you good work

  7. Sam Juliano Says:

    Doing vs Being or doing and being simultaneously. I guess that is always the question. I can see why you would need or want to do something but with some physical issues, I can well understand why you’d opt to wait it out. Hope you have a very good week my friend.

    Patricia Reply:

    Sam,
    thank you for dropping by and your good words. I think this is why I am enjoying the movies so much. Physically not doing except for healing, but mentally exploring other stories.

    I still need to work on my emotional IQ and then I am doing journal writing. The mindful brain is so much more creative and in a way much more productive

  8. Laurie Buchanan Says:

    Patricia – I wanted to let you know that the book arrived in this morning’s mail — Whoohoo! — thank you again!

    Patricia Reply:

    Laurie
    I am so glad it arrived!…Thank you for letting me know

    YAY!

  9. Heidi Jenkins Says:

    Doing nothing just ain’t my thing. I am always doing something because I wanna be busy and I wanna make each minute, each hour and each day count.
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    patricia Reply:

    Heidi,
    I do not think thinking is not an active process and a great deal of thinking involves writing, research, discussion, and editing. Although not a sport it is very active process indeed for me
    Thank you for coming by – thank you for sharing your thoughts