(or Believe Part II)
The courtyard is prepared and bathed in sunlight.
The guards are posted at each entrance.
The wall has received this action before.
Spectators are behind protective cover. Nervous quiet extends.
Protestors gather at the edges bearing up signs and chanting.
The commenters and pundits have all published their remarks. BELIEVE!
The big guns are primed and ready, awaiting the arrival and are not to be disappointed.
A locked cage door is opened and from dark to yard the prisoner is escorted – wall stoically receives.
I have chosen this execution, for the prisoner hid in my root cellar for years and years; donning camouflage and secret identities. I must know this culprit in the light of day and recognize the value and emotion that this experience has for me. I will see it to its conclusion. I was blind to what is now revealed. I will be witness.
There are 5 bullets loaded one per big gun.
Bullet #1 Understanding This involves a recognition of what this is and a clarification of how it is no longer serving; how it might be hindering. There is no proceeding without an honest evaluation from every angle. To recognize each emotion and to reveal each fear, it is the fire and the icy plunge into what might be the outcome. It is the precursor to the court of judgment and the ruling.
Bullet #2 Forgiveness Why did you not understand before this time? What blinded this possibility? How could someone perpetrate this and invade the system – demean your privacy and thoughts? What were their intentions and how was this outcome tolerated? Was everyone blind, on another path, or not ready to understand? Who was laughing? Was it just part of the game and some of the rules went missing? Who was the winner? Was there a winner? Should I worry? Was my slip showing?
Release and let go, sometimes over and over again….until filled with light and peace – sometimes exhaustion.
Bullet #3 Acceptance Is it released and let go? Now is not the time to tamp it down and cocoon it in a shell of spit and excrement. Try again. Even yet again.
Now own it and wrap it up in the presence of understanding. Cajole and coddle it and memorize the contours of the face of it. Touch it with your finger tips just until you can find a full embrace.
Blame is its own master of destruction. Guilt serves only itself. Call for help if needed.
Bullet #4 Gratitude Smile in satisfaction. Beam in joy and bliss. Laugh out loudly and roll the stone away. The baby does not scowl on the first stroll, but walks with pure enjoyment knowing it will try, try again. Sing out loud and whistle a happy tune. Never ever forget to say thank you for effort and connection. Skip the chocolate, almond, fudge ripple and go straight for the gusto of contentment.
Bullet #5 Compassion* Jump in with both feet. Hear the bells ringing and listen to their song. Recognize the story journey in someone else. Gloat not. Pride and praise are not for strutting. “I’ll be calling you …ou… ou… ou” There are travel agents all over the place. Your spirit guide will find you. Be open -hearted and ear-ed. Angels do not just whisper and chant, they cause tripping and falling into grace; not to mention that sometimes they push and shove. Oh yes! The new wisdom shall find you – just keep looking.
When one knows better, one will do better.
It is a good thing this execution.
Ready, Aim, Fire!
It is over and it is only begun.
*Compassion: The capacity to reconstruct the situation imaginatively, and to respond emotionally in ways defined by meanings and values. From the combination of these capacities emerge two features that distinguish true compassion from a merely sentimental or impulsive response: the inclination toward informed, intelligent actions and the willingness to risk and give of oneself to alleviate suffering. In other words, it is an active verb.