The Magic WANT!
I was reading blogs and found that Tess of the Bold Life Blog had made a typo in the comments section. She had ended her word with a T instead of a D.
I have to admit this phrase has gotten stuck in my mind for several weeks now.
Tom Volkar, one of the coaches on line, wrote that one needs to think about the “BIG” Thing you want to do in your life and get this out of your head and your heart and put it out for the world to see and for you to work towards. No use in thinking small.
I started wrestling with these ideas – first with my thumbs, then with arms, and now it has become a full body contact match. I thought maybe the big idea would come to me while I was walking and touring in another country. No it is right here and right now – I do not need to come up with something new and this is already on the table, before my eyes, and in my face real.
I am looking for a magic wand to change the WANT into reality. I would like a magic pill- well not really – a magic wand that truly worked would certainly do the trick.
I am looking for a support system and a belief system outside of myself – and I will never achieve this something BIG if I believe that it is outside of me.
The naysayers are everywhere with the proof to back up what they are shouting at me.
So here is the deal: the BIGGY
I want to heal myself of this dis-ease this dis-order and I want to live at least until I am 85 and I want to live healthy…..not infirmed or diminished.
One of the promises I made to my Father when he was dying was that I would figure out what this dis-ease was and take care of myself. I know the name of the disease: Genetic, non-alcoholic Fatty Liver Disease. It mimics diabetes sometimes with its insulin resistance and it wrecks havoc on your immune systems. It leaves one open to cancer and environmentally caused cancers – not to mention other disease.
If I take the American Diabetes medicine, I know I will be dead within 10 years.
I am already involved in the BIGGY. I have moved me, myself, and I up to the top of the list. I am putting exercise first on my goals for the day and I am repeating my mantra with every step of the way.
I am removing the toxic and replacing it with the positive. I am recognizing when I am stuck and when I need an interpreter, and I know who to go to for assistance.
I know what I need to do and the teachers and lessons are coming at me in perfect timing. I am not playing around, wishing and hoping; rather I am in constant touch with my goal. Today I see clearly that this is IT and I am on the path.
I am putting aside my fear, daily ritual, of being in an accident or getting ill and ending up in the ER unable to defend myself or protect myself. It is not going to happen! “They” are not going to kill me before my time or relax me into complacency.
I will be able to be my own advocate and show other how to do this – and not to numb down, but to gear up and positive radiate – avoiding radiation.
I have transitioned into this moment. I just had to let go of the magic wants and move into Trust and Belief. This is a moment of LOVE.
For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall understand fully, even as I have been fully understood. So faith, hope, love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
I Corinthians 13:12-13
Playing it small is not the answer to my prayers. Thank you Tess and Thank you Tom – it was on the tip of my tongue – it just needed your words to get it out.
What is your BIG thing? Do you have magic wants? Distractions? What are you avoiding seeing?
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