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The Magic WANT!

I was reading blogs and found that Tess of the Bold Life Blog had made a typo in the comments section. She had ended her word with a T instead of a D.

I have to admit this phrase has gotten stuck in my mind for several weeks now.

Tom Volkar, one of the coaches on line, wrote that one needs to think about the “BIG” Thing you want to do in your life and get this out of your head and your heart and put it out for the world to see and for you to work towards. No use in thinking small.

I started wrestling with these ideas – first with my thumbs, then with arms, and now it has become a full body contact match. I thought maybe the big idea would come to me while I was walking and touring in another country. No it is right here and right now – I do not need to come up with something new and this is already on the table, before my eyes, and in my face real.

I am looking for a magic wand to change the WANT into reality. I would like a magic pill- well not really – a magic wand that truly worked would certainly do the trick.

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I am looking for a support system and a belief system outside of myself – and I will never achieve this something BIG if I believe that it is outside of me.

The naysayers are everywhere with the proof to back up what they are shouting at me.

So here is the deal: the BIGGY

I want to heal myself of this dis-ease this dis-order and I want to live at least until I am 85 and I want to live healthy…..not infirmed or diminished.

One of the promises I made to my Father when he was dying was that I would figure out what this dis-ease was and take care of myself. I know the name of the disease: Genetic, non-alcoholic Fatty Liver Disease. It mimics diabetes sometimes with its insulin resistance and it wrecks havoc on your immune systems. It leaves one open to cancer and environmentally caused cancers – not to mention other disease.

If I take the American Diabetes medicine, I know I will be dead within 10 years.

I am already involved in the BIGGY. I have moved me, myself, and I up to the top of the list. I am putting exercise first on my goals for the day and I am repeating my mantra with every step of the way.

I am removing the toxic and replacing it with the positive. I am recognizing when I am stuck and when I need an interpreter, and I know who to go to for assistance.

I know what I need to do and the teachers and lessons are coming at me in perfect timing. I am not playing around, wishing and hoping; rather I am in constant touch with my goal. Today I see clearly that this is IT and I am on the path.

I am putting aside my fear, daily ritual, of being in an accident or getting ill and ending up in the ER unable to defend myself or protect myself. It is not going to happen! “They” are not going to kill me before my time or relax me into complacency.

I will be able to be my own advocate and show other how to do this – and not to numb down, but to gear up and positive radiate – avoiding radiation.

I have transitioned into this moment. I just had to let go of the magic wants and move into Trust and Belief. This is a moment of LOVE.

For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall understand fully, even as I have been fully understood. So faith, hope, love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
I Corinthians 13:12-13

Playing it small is not the answer to my prayers. Thank you Tess and Thank you Tom – it was on the tip of my tongue – it just needed your words to get it out.

What is your BIG thing? Do you have magic wants? Distractions? What are you avoiding seeing?

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25 Responses to “The Magic WANT!”

  1. Tom Volkar / Delightful Work Says:

    “I am looking for a support system and a belief system outside of myself – and I will never achieve this something BIG if I believe that it is outside of me.” Very powerful and well said. We can create the structure of a support system with agreements but only after we have taken responsibility and set our intention form within.

    Your biggy is indeed big and life enhancing. I wish you clear focus and continued determination. I just wrote about my biggy. Playing in a rugby game Aug 8, even though I haven’t even been able to jog for 8 years!

    Tom Volkar / Delightful Works last blog post..To Hell With What They Say

  2. Positively Present Says:

    So funny how one little letter can change the meaning entirely… I really enjoyed reading this post and now I’m going to give some thought to my big thing…

    Positively Presents last blog post..you CAN have it all: 8 tips for balancing work and life

  3. Dot Says:

    I read and was inspired by Tom’s post, too. Everything in my life has been converging towards getting clearer on what I want and where I’m going. My biggy is pretty much the same as yours, with the added motivation that I don’t want to end my life the way my mother did, all alone.

    Dots last blog post..My Mother Has Passed

  4. Vered - MomGrind Says:

    It’s not always easy to look at the big picture and focus on our main goals. You’re doing a great job, Patricia.

    Vered – MomGrinds last blog post..Truth In Advertising

  5. Patricia Says:

    Tom,
    Thank you for your good words – I just wrote about getting the right pair of shoes and how much help that has been – I stopped listening to other’s ideas on that subject and have benefitted greatly. Having good guides is important.

    Dani,
    It is hard to keep the belief systems all up and running and working towards…so chunking the goal into a smaller reminder statement and writing out the definition is helpful. Loving the self in all ways – powerful

    Dot,
    Part of your big thing is to attract supportive, loving, respectful people into your life. As you get on your pathway that part of the “big” thing will start coming to you – I wanted to attract good, solid, real friends and look at this – I attracted you and Vered, and Tom, and Dani, and Barbara and Tess and Davina and Jannie…you know the list goes on and on here – am I not lucky? It is coming to you too…

    Vered,
    Yes, I believe I am doing a great job and feeling better for it everyday – Thank you Vered, your comments are so valuable to me – and honest.

  6. Jannie Funster Says:

    Exercise, yay!! You are on the very right track, as you know. We were made to move and rejoice in it.

    Me, I see just fine but tend to keep myself “unseen” lately, which I can cure by playing out with music once a week with my trio. Lining up gigs would be a Very Good Thing to check off my long to-do list. Get those CDs sent to radio stations too.

    Light and love!
    xo

    Jannie Funsters last blog post..Five Little Lightbulbs

  7. Betsy Wuebker Says:

    Congratulations, Patricia, on identifying and working on your big thing. I think there’s a reason they call it the elephant in the room: because it is huge and we dance around it all the time. I think you’ve said hello to your fear.

    The funny thing about a negative is that once it’s acknowledged, it begins to dissipate. All it wants is attention! We’re the ones who choose how long we attend to it.

    I think I’m doing my big thing. I’ve wanted to be a writer all my life. But only when I said, “I AM a writer” rather than “I want to be a writer” did the Universe present me with a paid gig, and the most fantabulous independent projects in addition. This proved abundance.

    So, the big thing is I’m not wasting any more time on who I want to be. I’m 55 and I am. It’s the greatest! Instead of an AHA! moment, it’s a DOH! moment. Whatever! :)

    Betsy Wuebkers last blog post..ADVENTURES IN CUSTOMER SERVICE: WELLS FARGO DUMPS ON A GRIEVING MOTHER

  8. Patricia Says:

    Jannie,
    I think there is a moment of high energy after your Cd release or anything that moves us in our “BIG” thing – and that was a big thing…now you are in the contemplative stage of what next…? but I don’t see you as laying low…you are on everyone’s blog these days…and making space for yourself….you are on the move girl!

    Betsy,
    You just say things so well….I thought I was the elephant in the room! Yes I think you are doing your big thing and we are all benefiting from it…Thank you for sharing…
    I like that commercial phrase – I am not getting older, I am getting better – and to think 65 is the peak of creativity for woman – look out world – Betsy is on the way! No stopping her now.

  9. Mama Zen Says:

    You are really inspiring!

    Mama Zens last blog post..Now, Where Is That Squirrel?

  10. Barbara Swafford Says:

    Hi Patricia,

    I love how what you read in other posts inspired you to write this and share your “biggy” with us. What really resonated with me was your positive attitude. That, in itself, can take us far.

    I have been reading Dr. Wayne Dyer’s book, “Excuses Begone” and just like your post, it’s opening my eyes to the fact I can be all and do all, I choose. It’s just a matter of letting do of those darn excuses.

    Barbara Swaffords last blog post..Finding Pleasure In Ordinary Things

  11. Liara Covert Says:

    Healing from the inside out is a choice. As you become more conscious of who and what you are, then everything falls into place and what used to matter no longer does. You are free.

    Liara Coverts last blog post..What is your legacy?

  12. Patricia Says:

    Mama Zen,
    thank you

    Barbara Swafford,
    Wow that book sounds like another good one to add to my list, I used to do a whole lecture on getting rid of excuses when I worked at the University…

    I am being as positive as I can be right now…and asking when I need help….the positive is the best sword against fear….I think it also helps to know going on this trip is the right thing to do and it is all coming together from post to funds for food…
    Thank you for coming on by.

    Liara,
    I am feeling a sense of freedom and as my youngest child gets launched here I am finding it easier and easier…everything from my Christmas list in a December post is also falling into place – I think I am on to something here :)

  13. Jannie Funster Says:

    Amen, sistah! And you are most inspirational. Thank you.

    Jannie Funsters last blog post..Like a bord on a wire, 9

  14. Patricia Says:

    Jannie,
    You are my inspiration daily!

  15. Talon Says:

    Patricia, you’re words ring with desire and determination. It’s a truly wonderful and liberating feeling to have your feet planted on the right path.

    Talons last blog post..Happy Birthday, Canada!

  16. Talon Says:

    and Im becoming a Typo Queen tonight. I meant “your words”.

    Talons last blog post..Happy Birthday, Canada!

  17. Davina Says:

    Hi Patricia. I see you’ve found your magic wand — You. There’s a real boldness in your words here. You’re rolling now!

    Davinas last blog post..Guest Post: Three Shades of Happiness

  18. J.D. Meier Says:

    I like the fact you’re digging inward. There’s power in there. Where there’s a will there’s a way, and now the trick is finding the best way.

    I have to imagine that somewhere in the world, there has to exist, the absolute best information that would help you heal. The trick is finding what that is and who might know it. I haven’t collected stories of amazing healing yet, but I have heard of amazing results with living foods and with Dr. Fuhrman’s nutritional density approach.

    As with anything, I’m a fan of finding people with results over theories and then testing for myself to see what works for me. I also like drawing from the best sources I can find.

    J.D. Meiers last blog post..Crucial Moments

  19. Eliza Says:

    I don’t think the original intent of any spiritual belief system was to have the answers and the solution come from an external source. And I have personally found, that once I take control and actively work to achieve my wants/needs/desires then and only then do I get the support I need from external sources.

    To wish for something is passive. To grab that magic wand and go out and get that something? Now that is action! Way to go, Patricia!

    Elizas last blog post..Understanding weight gain after 40

  20. patricia Says:

    Talon,
    Thank you for your good words, yep I feel on the path and I am writing about the healing shoes on Monday the 6th.

    Davina,
    Yep I am picking up on Tess’s Bold and determined stuff here…I am feeling a new sense of my own power.

    JD
    Dr. Fuhrman must be one of the giants with shoulders! I got 6 emails about his work yesterday – put his book on my Kindle this morning. I like drawing from the best sources and that is why I study your articles and your blog! Thank you JD

  21. patricia Says:

    Eliza,
    I needed to get the word out ….I am being inundated with forms and medical test requests from my Doctor’s Office, and my Health Insurance nurses – they have given me a diagnosis and a label that just does not fit me, but now I feel like I have to boldly get myself out in the public to dispel the “spells” they are casting upon me, almost on a daily basis.

    I don’t believe them, but I need some support in my convictions.
    Thank you for all the good cheerleading here!
    I needed that!

  22. bunnygotblog Says:

    Dear Patricia,

    This article is truly beautiful because it is so heartfelt and it shines through.
    Positive thinking works wonders and surround yourself with happy people. Laughter is great medicine.

    bunnygotblogs last blog post..17 Sexy Commercials: Advertising Towards Dummies

  23. Patricia Says:

    Bunny,
    Thank you for your good words of encouragement – I am attempting to partake of humor every day…

  24. Sara Says:

    Patricia,

    If anyone can do it; you can.

    I’ve been reading your blog for some time now and can say with authority that you are one very strong willed woman! But in addition to your strength, you are also open-minded and willing to explore ways to help yourself.

    Believe in YOU my friend:~)

    Saras last blog post..The Second Chance

  25. Patricia Says:

    Sara,
    This was great cheering! Thank you. I believe!