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A Different Journey

If you do the same thing over again with the same discipline and focus you will arrive at the same results.

I am attempting to do take a new path and find a new direction. One of my goals for this year was to be the Healthiest I have ever been in my life. If one were to look at my year from October 2008 to April 2009, I have not experienced a single day of good health within that span of time.

One success that has come out of this dis-ease is that I have begun to ask new questions and am building a new team of consultants. By starting with my old team, I have accomplished a huge list of test results, lab work and x-rays, which all state that I am an incredible healthy nearly 60 year old woman with acid reflux, torn ligament, and non-alcoholic, insulin-resistant fatty liver disease (a genetic disorder). I have no signs of arthritis or cancer and stiffness, aches and pains are just what come with age.

Oh by the way, here are 5 or 6 prescriptions of pills we would like you to take. Just one more thing, could you please get a bit underweight – lose about 90 pounds?

I took one of the pills and gained 18 pounds in 10 days, was riddled with muscle spasms everywhere my body could cramp, nausea, headaches, lethargy, and in so much pain I was unable to sleep.

Calories in and calories out, this is the name of the game.

This game was not working for me.

I have begun collecting words that resonate. I started collecting names of new and different healing practitioners. I called to see if they had openings and if they did not would they suggestion someone else. Sometimes this process was a dead end and sometimes it was a window opening.

Something that resonated with me was when I heard that folks, who live to be over 100 years and are healthy, eat their smallest meal of the day in the evening and they eat their largest meal of the day when they are expending the most energy – between 11am and 2pm. I now have a grilled salmon patty about 11am each day and a small salad with a glass of goat, soy, or almond milk in the evening. This has made a radical difference in my energy levels during the day.

I also found a Medical Intuitive and began working with energy medicine. This has drawn me back to my earlier studies of the Holy Sacraments and their relationship to the Chakra systems of the body. (I studied a great deal of Caroline Myss’ work Anatomy of the Spirit.) My love of flowers has been translated into 4 short meditations with flower essence drops under my tongue (you can see the flowers here and here).

All the hard driving, heavily charted exercise has been translated into walking several times a day and gentle stretching before each burst of meditation. When I am swimming a mile per hour, walking 6 miles in 2 hours and sweating while lifting weights; my body is busy holding on to every calorie of energy it can hold on to and is busy responding by making more fat cells for the moments of pain and famine that are coming again soon!

For the past 15 days I have been nearly pain free and that is a blessing. The torn ligament talks to me if I overextend but it has stopped shouting. I am not out of the woods, on the super highway of living, or even at peace or contentment on my journey. Yet! I can say I am path finding with more satisfying results than ever before. This feels very good.

The ladybug is the symbol of woman recreating herself…now healing herself.

What are your reflections on my journey? What words resonate with you right now?
Does my journey open up any fear for you? How do you use lessons that come to you?

Please keep in mind the writing contests.

There is definitely a contest that everyone could write about.

Looking forward to the conversation!

17 Responses to “A Different Journey”

  1. Robin Says:

    Patricia – i am so pleased to hear how you are going, especially that you have been getting relief from the pain – it is so exciting! I don’t know if you know, but here in Australia we call ladybugs “ladybirds” – I’ve always loved them.

    Robins last blog post..Tomato Seeds And Delicious Fruit

  2. Ribbon Says:

    Yep Robin’s right we do call them “ladybirds” and we love them. Bugs aren’t considered to be nice things…. more like creepy crawlies.

    It’s always great to read about someone doing something to help themselves… moving in a healthier direction.

    Brilliant …… there’s a word for you :-)

    be well & best wishes Ribbon

    Ribbons last blog post..Six Word Saturday…

  3. Dot Says:

    It seems to me that your current path is more likely to lead to health than the previous one, but it’s an expensive road to go down. That’s what always stops me — the expense and the lack of insurance coverage for a lot of it. However, it sounds like you’re at least getting better, which is huge. What a burden to have to carry around.

    I’m always impressed with your drive and purposefulness. Hope you find your way out of ALL of it. (((Hugs)))

    Dots last blog post..Spring Has Sprung

  4. Patricia Says:

    I do know that Ladybirds are the word for my symbolic bug! Scarab is another word and I have always been drawn to them and used them as the symbol for my 50th year – My IT person added them to my blog and Voila’ it fits!
    I am very happy to be pain free after so many months…Today I am also doing an interesting thing…I have hired a person to come in and clean my house – My partner hates the idea, but as I wait for arrival of the crew…I am very excited about sharing my resources in this way – it feels win-win.

    Thank you for the good word and encouragement – it is work and effort, but it feels very good to be pain free right now. I appreciate not being alone.

    This is a financially very scary time to be doing this….it is testing my faith and resolve. Letting Go is the hardest work I have ever done, but I feel I must do it now and not put off any longer – I am doing lots of the homework and research on my own (paying the Internet bill and taxes for the Library) and really making it useful.
    The hard part for me is that I want to have some spending money for Scotland, but feel that I really must go there – that is really resonating with my healing path….
    I keep my focus on synchronicity and doors opening….that is encouraging….and I must accept the fact that I will have the same outcome – maybe with a less painful trip – whether I do the work or not.
    Your ((hugs)) good thinking, and thoughtful words are so encouraging. Thank you

    Thank you all.

  5. Vered - MomGrind Says:

    I completely agree that having a small dinner, and a more substantial meal midday, makes a lot of sense. back in Israel that’s how we used to eat. It’s only here in the U.S. that I got used to a small lunch and a heavy dinner.

    Vered – MomGrinds last blog post..Cabo San Lucas

  6. Patricia Says:

    I think this way of eating makes such good sense. We used to run home at noon from school for DINNER and my Father often came home when he was not traveling, but then my mum went back to teaching and we could not sustain that lifestyle.

  7. Liara Covert Says:

    To acknowledge a sense of progress is to reinforce self-acceptance. As a person chooses to identfy with timelessness and consciousness becomes primary focus, then the focus of your attention changes. The inner healing reverberrates into aspects of the world you touch with the heart. Core joy expands.

    Liara Coverts last blog post..Why its not what you think

  8. J.D. Meier Says:

    It sounds like you’re building Patricia 2.0 and that’s great.

    Your reminding me that one of life’s hot spots is health/body and that it can be tough to find the best patterns and practices that actually work.

    That said I know some folks have had amazing results with Dr. Fuhrman. http://www.drfuhrman.com/.

    I don’t know if you’ve studied the Zone, but I know people in real life with great results and I like the core principles. It’s also been used for Olympic athletes. I think one of the cultures the Dr. studied when building the Zone, was Okinawa, because it’s produced some of the longest living people.

    J.D. Meiers last blog post..The Five Small Business Success Formulas

  9. Caroline Says:

    Great post Patricia. You seem to be on a really good path right now. I like to eat my larger meal at lunch too.

    Isn’t Caroline Myss amazing! Anatomy of the Spirit is one of my favorite books.

    Carolines last blog post..I have a secret…

  10. Sara Says:


    You should be very proud of yourself. You are now the conductor of your own healing process and in our medical establishment, this is no easy feat! But just look at the changes you’re reporting…now that YOU are in charge. GOOD FOR YOU:~)

    Saras last blog post..Story Photo Monday: Behind the door

  11. Mark Says:

    The tactics that you are taking resonate with me. I think you are on a great path for you. The only part that does not resonate with me is the diet. While I agree that the noon time meal should be the main meal of the day and produces the most energy, for me the limited intake in the evening would be a cause for low energy. Trust in what you are doing, know that you can be pain free as you have been for many days now. Love yourself and listen to your intuition.

    Marks last blog post..Knowing the Future

  12. patricia Says:

    Thank you for your good words and ideas…I am finding the 4 meditations a day create a very positive feeling and a sense of timelessness indeed.

    Maybe I am building Patricia 6.0! I do know the zone and worked with that program a few years ago. I got a bit jealous when I found out the meals were delivered in Seattle, but not near my home! It is a great deal of work..I wonder if I might learn to do my own IT work if I used that diet?

    I think Caroline Myss is just one of life’s superior beings…I took a class with her on the sacraments and chakra’s and it has been so vital in my work. a big fan here!

    I am very proud of myself and for keeping at it and not giving up.
    I just saw a picture of my college 40 year grad reunion…not the thinnest, but I surely look healthier than most of the others…I have taken very good care of myself.

    Thank you for coming by and your good words. I do think it is finally a path for me and not just a bypass freeway to my family’s needs and that is feeling like a good ride. I can feel my intuition coming alive for me and I can hear what it is saying.
    And now we have sunshine today…a magical combination, my energy is restoring…

  13. Chris O. Says:

    I am a huge advocate of trying new things. You really can’t continue down the same path if you want different results. In business and in life.

    Thanks Patricia,


    Chris O.
    Referral Key
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  14. Henie Says:


    Thank you for sharing your journey so openly! Many things resonate from your words…that in fear there is strength; in sadness there is humor; in weight gain there is excercise; in growing older there is wisdom; and in everything about you, there is beauty!:~)

    I’ve also experienced first hand the one-pill-gain-20-pounds-in-an-hour! :~) Thank you for making me laugh!:~)

    Henies last blog post..Crooked Stretch

  15. mj Says:

    Hi! It’s been a long time since I’ve written! I, too, thought our classmates looked rather, well, heavy and old! Surely not me! ?? PBS was doing its fund-raising the other day and had a yoga teacher as the guest that day. The remarks by her students were almost ALL about the relief of pain, and the greater health they were experiencing as a result of basic yoga. I wish I could remember her name — she has a video, etc. But, you could find out by going to the PBS website I’m sure. I am praying for you to walk the path of healing.

  16. Jannie Funster Says:

    What resonates with me is your spirit and joy at being pain-free for 15 days. Your constant optimism.

    And your 4 flower drops under your tongue. I try to keep it to a max of 3 drops a day, because of the calories.

    Jannie Funsters last blog post..Jannie’s Fine!!

  17. Patricia Says:

    Sorry I was late to the game here in replying but I had a hard time figuring out the wireless connections here.
    It is very good to work at new things and I like how energized I feel – a good brain workout too! I am excited about the new results.

    Thank you for your great comments – it gave me a chuckle and a splash of joy – I so appreciate your insights and photographs too.
    Oh the 20 pound weight gain pill is an awful experience…
    One can only laugh or despair – I choose laughter!

    I am so happy to find your comments here mj…Thank you I don’t wish to loose touch and have not been facebooking very much with this pulled muscle – which I did in my yoga class! I just can not sit in a chair for very long.
    I believe I need all the prayers I can get…thank you
    I could not possibly look that old and heavy! why I am only turning 60!!!! and I have sparkling eyes and a great smile…only laugh lines…and we never look as good in pictures as in person – too flat! Not enough laughter in those founders’ pictures!
    Thank you for dropping by…good to see you

    3 drops too many calories! I need a slap in the face to stop laughing…I am too spirited!
    and you have a great typo on another comment on another post – Pou instead of You…add that to your bord on a wire….

    You are a gem dear girl!

    I do wish to have grumpy and cranky days too! I am a complete woman you know!