A Different Journey
If you do the same thing over again with the same discipline and focus you will arrive at the same results.
I am attempting to do take a new path and find a new direction. One of my goals for this year was to be the Healthiest I have ever been in my life. If one were to look at my year from October 2008 to April 2009, I have not experienced a single day of good health within that span of time.
One success that has come out of this dis-ease is that I have begun to ask new questions and am building a new team of consultants. By starting with my old team, I have accomplished a huge list of test results, lab work and x-rays, which all state that I am an incredible healthy nearly 60 year old woman with acid reflux, torn ligament, and non-alcoholic, insulin-resistant fatty liver disease (a genetic disorder). I have no signs of arthritis or cancer and stiffness, aches and pains are just what come with age.
Oh by the way, here are 5 or 6 prescriptions of pills we would like you to take. Just one more thing, could you please get a bit underweight – lose about 90 pounds?
I took one of the pills and gained 18 pounds in 10 days, was riddled with muscle spasms everywhere my body could cramp, nausea, headaches, lethargy, and in so much pain I was unable to sleep.
Calories in and calories out, this is the name of the game.
This game was not working for me.
I have begun collecting words that resonate. I started collecting names of new and different healing practitioners. I called to see if they had openings and if they did not would they suggestion someone else. Sometimes this process was a dead end and sometimes it was a window opening.
Something that resonated with me was when I heard that folks, who live to be over 100 years and are healthy, eat their smallest meal of the day in the evening and they eat their largest meal of the day when they are expending the most energy – between 11am and 2pm. I now have a grilled salmon patty about 11am each day and a small salad with a glass of goat, soy, or almond milk in the evening. This has made a radical difference in my energy levels during the day.
I also found a Medical Intuitive and began working with energy medicine. This has drawn me back to my earlier studies of the Holy Sacraments and their relationship to the Chakra systems of the body. (I studied a great deal of Caroline Myss’ work Anatomy of the Spirit.) My love of flowers has been translated into 4 short meditations with flower essence drops under my tongue (you can see the flowers here and here).
All the hard driving, heavily charted exercise has been translated into walking several times a day and gentle stretching before each burst of meditation. When I am swimming a mile per hour, walking 6 miles in 2 hours and sweating while lifting weights; my body is busy holding on to every calorie of energy it can hold on to and is busy responding by making more fat cells for the moments of pain and famine that are coming again soon!
For the past 15 days I have been nearly pain free and that is a blessing. The torn ligament talks to me if I overextend but it has stopped shouting. I am not out of the woods, on the super highway of living, or even at peace or contentment on my journey. Yet! I can say I am path finding with more satisfying results than ever before. This feels very good.
The ladybug is the symbol of woman recreating herself…now healing herself.
What are your reflections on my journey? What words resonate with you right now?
Does my journey open up any fear for you? How do you use lessons that come to you?
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Looking forward to the conversation!