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Confessions of a Practicing Self Advocate

For the last 40 days I have been working on a God Given Talent that I possess and have neglected.

I am very proud to say that I have been practicing singing for at least one song and humming some scales every day, except for 2 days over the last 40.

The 2 days where I did not sing actually announced the arrival of my real Epiphany workout and gave me so many Ah Ha! moments () and ideas that I know just where my path is headed. The talent I was supposed to be working on was Healing – healing myself in particular. For I have developed this awful, huge, noisy, drippy, watery eyes, nose blowing, tea and water drinking, horrible, terrible, horrific chest cold. Which makes healing the torn ligament or muscle in my sternum area (I thought it was a heart attack for the holidays!) a next to impossible experience.

I put myself to bed for 2 full days only up and around for more tea, sweat baths, and putting ice on the inflamed muscle. The third day I wandered around in my PJs (sometimes that is just the perfect way to spend a day) and finally settled in to channel surfing on our new TV. Thus arriving at a series of self understandings and an opportunity to figure out where I need to send my feet in my next explorations.

A Nugget of Learning:
If you take external ointment Vapor Rub and put it all over the bottoms of your feet, put on socks and then go to bed one will stop coughing for about 4 hours (The second night it worked for 9 hours for me). This nugget was from the receptionist at the Massage Therapy Office whose son suffers with asthma.

What I learned while channel surfing:

  1. I believe I have an answer to the malady that has inhabited by body since birth. I heard a Plastic Surgeon’s comment on a Doctor’s talk show about Women’s Health say, that some women who have had abdominal surgery particularly for ovarian cancer often have recurrent problems with Fatty Liver Disease.I immediately went to the computer and the Mayo Clinic Site and looked up the disease. It fit about 50% of my symptoms, but not quite. When I got to the bottom of the page I found another disease listed, Nonalcoholic Fatty Liver Disease. There was not a great deal of information, but what was there matched my life story at about 90%. It is a genetic disorder and it is not caused by eating a high fat diet, which I don’t eat.

    Here is the control of the disease: Exercise! Exercise! Exercise! Eat whole, fresh vegetables, fruits and low protein and carbohydrates. No High Fructose Corn Syrup or white sugar. Use Extra Virgin Organic Olive Oil or Cold Pressed Walnut Oil and drink a whole glass of fresh pressed apple juice or eat a ½ a grapefruit before every meal. Eat 8 small meals a day, never a big Thanksgiving style feast meal. Weigh 10-15 pounds underweight for you. In other words, go back to my exercise and eating routine where I felt so great in 2007.

  2. I am going to wean myself off the diabetic diet and go on a Potassium Broth Liver Flush diet for the next 40 days, starting on Ash Wednesday.
  3. I also discovered some of the beliefs I held deeply about money, are not very useful to me anymore, so I am going to take a new class about making money (not just how to manage it)which was introduced to me by Barbara at Blogging without a Blog. I enjoyed Mary Ann’s introductory lessons so much and I think this is just the right next step for me.
  4. I am not going to watch the news for the next 45 days. I will just read the headlines off my feed reader. I am not going to absorb any more fear messages and then have to debrief.

Are you going to take on any new practices and discoveries over the next 40 days?
Did you have any epiphanies you would like to tell us about?
What kind of Support do you think you might need for these changes?
Let’s Talk…

29 Responses to “Confessions of a Practicing Self Advocate”

  1. Lance Says:

    Hi Patricia,

    I wish you well on this coming 40 day journey. Much going on. I’m a big believer in exercise and proper nutrition (which I need to get back to myself!).

    Me? Well, my new practice/discovery over the next 40 days – is a one time event – although one that is going to take much thoughtful consideration, prayer, and preparation. I’m doing a testimonial at our church for one of our Wednesday Lenten worship services in late March. This is definitely taking me outside of my comfort zone, although I think it will be good (soul type good) for me to do.

    Lances last blog post..Sunday Thought For The Day

  2. Davina Says:

    Hi Patricia.

    You are constantly learning more about yourself. And sharing all this information will be helpful to people who land on your blog who need answers for themselves.

    I get a sense that you are feeling much lighter with this recent discovery and now you have a positive direction to move forward with. Good for you Patricia!

    I have recently realized that I’ve not been taking care of myself. I wrote a fairly long comment on Barbara’s blog explaining my new morning routine. I feel so rested this am as the last 2 nights I’ve been in bed before 11pm — I used to stay up until 2 am reading and commenting. It doesn’t make for a restful night because the mind is active from all the reading. I feel in high spirits this morning after rising at 5:30 am, journalling, doing yoga and meditating.

    Davinas last blog post..The Morning Muse — Inspiring Hands

  3. ocean Says:

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  4. patricia Says:

    You do have a big practice to attend to and work on for the next 40 days. It will take lots of prayer and focus. I am just going to make myself feel out on the desert and resist the bread and the treats offered up along the way. And take back my exercise routine, which always makes me feel heavenly. Keep me posted, I would love to know how you are doing and be supportive.

    I read somewhere that the sleep one gets before midnight is the most healing, nurturing sleep of all……with getting up at 4:30am, I just have to be in bed by 9pm or I am not functional.
    I find when I stick to my routine I just feel so much better.

    I am a bit frustrated with my honey’s blog…I am up to commenting on 16 a week for him….and only one sometimes makes a comment…these engineers and architects don’t even reply to comments – I think it is because they are so competitive?

    I just have to work at cutting back on commenting – keep it to my 2 hour limit a day. I also really need a day off a week.

    I believe that having a name to my dis-ease has given me more concrete research directions and that has given me some tangible goals to subdue it’s agony.

    You maybe should add this to your food counseling rep. There must be a number of folks from Scotland with this same malady,in your neck of the woods? And if they are in as much “pain” as I am, they should be knocking down your door.

  5. patricia Says:

    Welcome welcome and I am heading over to your site now

  6. Dot Says:

    I thought I’d commented, but I must have gotten interrupted. It’s hard when you have to take your health care into your own hands, because the alternative medicine and traidtional medicine camps are still rathre far apart. I do hope your 40-day plan will yield great results.

    I’m doing something similar, though in a far less-organized way in keeping with my desire never to feel too regimented. Sleep is more important than people reaslize, as is nutrition. But I still say chocolate cake should have 0 calories and celery 500.

    About engineers and architects — I’ve always found them to be fairly non-verbal. They think in more dimensions than language permits, I think.

    Dots last blog post..What It’s Like at the Sleep Lab

  7. Patricia Says:

    It is too painful to not go after this with a 40 day plan…I believe I will have great results. I just don’t understand why the Docs all seem to want to be great guru’s and then just push pills, don’t recognize what you are doing, and only on TV seem to research other possibilities, but not until you are on death’s doorstep?

    Architects I know are very silent types….but their blog posts are interesting and tough posts to read…

  8. Evelyn Lim Says:

    I wish you well, Patricia. Sounds like you’ve got a lot that you’re going to be doing in the next 40 days. I may just be inspired enough to do a detox cleanse, long overdue but necessary. Hmmm….

    Evelyn Lims last blog post..Play The Wishing Game?

  9. Jocelyn of I TAKE OFF THE MASK Says:

    Hi Patricia! I like the “Feel” of your blog, I’m sure glad I’ve found it :) I’ve added you in my Blogroll so I’d never forget this site and be able to visit here often. Nice day! And keep it up, including the singing.

    Jocelyn of I TAKE OFF THE MASKs last blog post..Inspirational Quote – 02.24.09

  10. patricia Says:

    I have done several detox cleanse routines over the years…I had not thought of that…I may just check into adding that to the practice. I so enjoyed reading about the wishing game…nice post, and thank you for coming by here.

    Thank you for coming on by and the lovely words. I am humming right along today :) thank you for adding me to you blog roll, I feel honored and I will head on over and check out your Quote.

    Welcome, Welcome

  11. Sara Says:

    Patricia — I loved number 4 about not watching the news for the next 45 days. Good for you!!! I’ve been doing this for months and it has been so wonderful. I used to be a CNN junkie prior to making this decision.

    It’s amazing how negative our news media is. It’s so easy to get sucked into to its negativity. I find that I’m much more relaxed now. If there’s something really important, I usually find out from others or from my reader…I don’t go searching for it.

    Thanks for sharing this post with us!

    Saras last blog post..Addicted to being a Somebody

  12. Patricia Says:

    This no news watching is truly a big step for me. I used to get paid for writing background research for reporters on many of the channels. I have cut down after the election until I am not watching any news since mid-January – so it is truly cutting off my only source of income right now too….a really big fast.

    You are very correct about the really important stuff gets to my hearing soon enough…and my reader is always there.

    I think I will not cut out my need of a laugh watching the Daily show on line….I am so intense anything that can help me laugh is vital to my health and wellbeing!

    Thank you for your comments

    Patricias last blog post..Confessions of a Practicing Self Advocate

  13. Vered - MomGrind Says:

    “I am not going to watch the news for the next 45 days. I will just read the headlines off my feed reader. I am not going to absorb any more fear messages and then have to debrief.”

    You are such a smart woman.

    Good luck with the new diet!

  14. Patricia Says:

    I hope I am a smart woman, because I am cutting off nearly my last income source right now :) But it certainly feels better.

    This is actually the 2007 diet I designed myself and by August I had lost 22 pounds and felt like I could take on the world…then I was switched over to this Glucose Index Diet and I am hungry all the time and now in pain in my liver…I have been doing lots of research on healing myself – because I want to live to at least 86 not 66…I am determined…

  15. Mark Says:

    I love that you have taken the time while you were healing to look inward and make decisions to let go of those ideas and things that no longer serve your best interest. I have not thought about the next 40 days so to speak. I approach each day with openness and the willingness to let go of or remove that from my life which no longer serves me. You will surely do great! Awareness and purpose is the key.

    Marks last blog post..Looking At Our Gaps

  16. Patricia Says:

    Thank you for stopping on by and I appreciate your kind words and ideas.
    I picked the next 40 days because for the last 40 years of my life I have always worked at making a self change – one year I went on a fruit juice fast, another I wrote a paper each day for 40 days…well, you get the idea….this year rather named it’s own pursuit and change…

  17. Tony Single Says:

    Patricia, you have a wonderful blog here. I especially relate to #4. I don’t see what there is to be gained from constantly filling my mind with, as you correctly put it, fear messages. It doesn’t hurt to have some idea of what’s going on in the larger world, but it is a detriment when we find ourselves worrying about things we can’t ever possibly change. Thanks so much for the reminder, and I hope you’ll allow me the privilege of hanging around your blog like a bad smell for awhile. :)

  18. patricia Says:

    Welcome, welcome and thank you for your nice comments.
    It will be lovely to have you hanging around good or bad smell – what’s the difference on a blog ;0 ?

    I am counting on you for a laugh or two on your good site…I think pigs are very wise beings particularly coming from your drawing pen!

  19. Henie Says:

    Not that I have a cough now but I cannot wait to test the vapor rub on your feet, put socks on and go to bed! :~)

    What kind of vapor rub is it?

    Thank you for such an informative post…I enjoyed it tremendously! :~)

    Henies last blog post..In the Bosom

  20. Jannie Funster Says:

    Did you get to sing yet today, even if just a few notes?

    Jannie Funsters last blog post..Trout-fishing hip waders!

  21. Patricia Says:

    Glad you liked the post. I used Vick’s Vapor Rub and it now has a cough suppressant caption on the label. Everyone at the physical therapists this morning was talking about how it worked for them this week. And I had great success with it. Good luck and I hope you don’t need it for quite awhile!

    I did sing this morning – Everyday Miracles in my own key! Thank you for asking

  22. Ribbon Says:

    Hello this is my first visit to you and I’m enjoying it :-)
    I’m sorry to read that you are living in pain.

    Great to read that you’re singing :-)……… since I stopped smoking like a chimney I sing almost everyday for the fun of being able to. My little boy loves it that I do & it makes my heart sing too.

    It’s wonderful to read that you are investigating your own health issues and not totally relying on health professionals to resolve it for you. Yes they are important assistants, but rarely do they know the whole picture.

    Best of luck with all that you are doing to care for yourself.
    You will very much notice a happier you now that you have decided not to watch television news………which mostly is ridiculous. I rarely watch it.

    best wishes Ribbon :-)

  23. patricia Says:

    Thank you for coming on by and I am glad you are enjoying the read! I see your comments around the blog and feel honored to have you here.

    I just love to sing and my children love to sing – we do rounds for grace at dinner and it just is so fun as the harmony begins and it draws us together. (They are all in schools away from home now, but it is a good memory)

    Yes, I think one must advocate for themselves about health…because the Docs are so busy and can’t even remember who you are sometimes without your own notes and updates.
    Four days of not watching the news and the world has not fallen apart and I am getting more reading time! This is good.

  24. Henie Says:

    Thanks, Patricia!

    I will remember to do this the next time I have a cough which I hope won’t be for a long time, if ever! :~)

    Henies last blog post..The Magic of a Paper Napkin

  25. Patricia Says:

    Good for you :)

  26. Davina Says:

    Hi Patricia.
    RE, your honey’s blog… hang in there. It’s good that you are willing to support him in this way. Does he have the time to do some commenting? Have you noticed the traffic improving as a result of your comment stream? I suspect that this blog will just need more time, (as I read on one of Darren Rowse’s posts), before the readers take “ownership” of the blog and its comment section. Before you know it they will start to leave comments. All it takes is for that first one to drop in and they will follow.

    I don’t do nutritional counselling anymore. I closed that business last year. It’s strictly editing and life coaching now. But thanks for the advice.

    Davinas last blog post..Benefits Of Turning Off Comments

  27. Patricia Says:

    Thanks again for dropping by…he does not have time to comment right now….as he is attempting to keep 12 families employed…and there is not work coming in…also he has started his training for the STP 204 mile bike ride in July….
    The good news of the blog is that it is connecting me to so extremely interesting other blogs…which have about 0 comments on them….but are fascinating and several are now getting on twitter….

    I am sorry to hear you are not doing the nutritional counseling…
    We all seem to be making adjustments that work better for us and our energies.

    My oldest has a professional paper to be editing for publishing this spring….I have directed her your way…I think you will hear from her…

  28. Liara Covert Says:

    A surrendered person rediscovers true spiritual power. That is, as you consciously discard habits, beliefs and practices that no longer serve your learning, it feels like you are shedding old skin. You renew from the inside out. You do it for yourself. To beleive the future will always be better is a presciption for permanent dissatisfaction Take charge and value nothing. This reinforces your invisible energy field and transforms your vision.

    Liara Coverts last blog post..10 Revelations to prick the ears

  29. Patricia Says:

    “To believe the future will always be better is a prescription for permanent dissatisfaction Take charge and value nothing.”

    How does one take charge and value nothing? Isn’t it the belief and actions one takes, because of the belief bring about healing decisions?

    I believe my inner vision is transformed but the Doctor says no – take these pills (I believe the pills will make me feel worse and make me dependent)

    I know that I have been transforming myself towards health and a longer life for my whole life and intently for the past 3 years
    I think I am confused by what you are attempting to share here in your comments? Can you enlighten me?