Doctor, Doctor are you Listening?
I am in pain and have been in pain since December 18, 2008. I am writing this nearly a month later and am still experiencing a knife point sharp pain just below my sternum and in the same spot in my back. The longest I have slept for the past month is 4 hours; I cannot lie semi-flat any longer- must get up and move.
The pain started in the middle of my back and burned around to my left side. I had torn a muscle in my armpit weight lifting last summer so I went to the Chiropractor and found relief with every visit until I tried to sleep. I did not miss an appointment until the big snow storm.
The chiropractor is a very thoughtful fellow but he does not listen to me and in hindsight he should have recommended to me an EKG and a trip to my Naturopath or Physician earlier. Maybe he could have helped to work through some solutions with me. I am thankful he did persist in keeping the Hiatal Hernia in proper position or I could have been in far worse shape.
My Physician is in India on sabbatical for another week and I was assigned a Resident who did the right thing when my blood pressure was 160/120 and the pain was fierce and sent me to the emergency room. My GI doctor was having a day off. After 4 hours of sitting in the waiting room of the ER, the Resident got the Doc’s attention and I was given a bed. My BP was now 240/120 and I was attempting to do all the relaxation exercises I know. (130/80 is normal BP)
The team went into fast action, almost no one listening to me and I was blurry now and forgot to tell them I had reconstruction surgery in 1996. They were sure I was having a heart attack. I did not have my medical history print out with me. “Why are you not taking your High Blood pressure medication?” Specialist after specialist boomed at me. Never listening to me saying,” with Diet and exercise I am 123/60 which is normal and I do all that because the BP meds make me depressed and upset.” “I monitor my blood pressure several times a day.”
“You are sure you do not have Diabetes?” I have been warned about this for the past year or so, but I am doing diet and exercise and have dropped blood sugar levels from 118 to 102 (66-99 is normal; 120 is diabetic). But I have had a drop in my exercise routine with all the snow and flooding – it has been erratic.
CT scans were ordered and a huge list of blood work and they kept popping in to ask me questions. The blood pressure stayed high. I kept doing deep breathing and adjusting my body to keep the pain at bay.
Test results are back…You appear to be healthy and normal in every department. Here is a new blood pressure medication “DO NOT SKIP TAKING IT”,
The whole demeanor of the emergency room Doc had changed, now he was treating a person who was faking it, wasn’t responsible to her medications and routines, and was a fat old woman with tons of excuses, a person who was emotionally vacuous and irresponsible for her own health and probably just came in for the pain medication fix. I was wasting his time and energy and he was tired and disgusted and moving on to one of the infants screaming with an ear infection. I think if he could have spit on me he would have.
I am disappointed because now I know that my Physician had declared me a Diabetic, and a person with High Blood Pressure and GERD. She has not noted that I am exercising and working on food issues, she has labeled what she sees. I was being told that these items were being dropped from my records with each year that I maintained; I thought I was building a team effort – Wow was I stupid to think that.
I no longer have any opportunity for Long Term Care Insurance. My Naturopath is going to continue to not listen to me and just lecture me. I was not only all by myself in the emergency room that day, but once again I know that each one of us is truly all by themselves all the time. We are the only ones responsible for our health and healing.
I am left with still high blood pressure, 6 prescription drugs, which do not appear to be doing anything, and I have an extremely sharp pain under my sternum bone. It is probably an emotional issue since we feel all our emotions in our stomachs first. Of course that is it! ‘cause we know that women are emotional addicts.
Here’s my diagnosis: I am feeling a sharp emotional pain for all the innocent children who are being whipped into shape by no education or by fundamentalists, children who are dying in Gaza, who are sold into slavery, who have no future, who have no opportunity, food or understanding because of poverty, and are being tossed around by the politicians and crazy people running countries.
The second idea I want you to grasp here, is that no one listens to me or hears me in the medical profession or they think I am lying. Their assumption: if she is this heavy she cannot possibly be eating correctly or exercising. I feel that this is pity and it makes me sad, but then we all know one can bring the water trough to the horse…..
So what do you think about your medical team? Do you know anyone who is not listened to by their medical team? Do you think I might be making this up? How are you responsible to your health? What is your diagnosis of my pain in the belly? I’m listening…