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Look Boss! De Wall! De Wall!

Ever find yourself face to face with a brick wall?

I have pneumonia and am quite ill. The antibiotic is taking care of the bacteria part of the infection but not the viral part. My body will not do anything as I face the wall; it will not fly over, climb up, or even curl up and sleep beside that wall.

Graffiti: I need sleep and relief from coughing – NOW
Brick Wall

Barbara Swafford on her creating a blog site, bloggingwithoutablog, is inviting people to promote their blogs on her blog and get some promotion for your writing. The gift of support and assistance – appreciation and abundance. I just need to register and write a welcome statement and my brain will not wrap around this possibility for relief at all. I feel worthless to others.

If you can’t sleep for the coughing or FOCUS your attention on writing – the writing for relief prescription does not work.

I am coughing everyone away from me right now.

Davina on lovingpulse is busy thanking all the folks who comment regularly on her site and writing lovely poems in 25 word precision. Gracious beauty and learning.

Vered on her blog momgrind.com is busy with guests for dinner but leaves us a good laugh and a hearty thank you. Her concise writing and new vision on image and poverty is startling and delights; it is so appreciated.

Cath Lawson on cathlawson.com is busy teaching us how to be a business as a blog from a strong business background and shares her insights and knowledge with life and no nonsense line drives. She is always checking in and giving good words and keeping me on track – I was glad I could forward on an Ambrosia Chuckle for her.

I have managed to read their posts and ideas and they help me move away from my state of being until the next cough brings me to my knees. They are there and I can find their words and ideas while mine are so foggy – I am grateful.

Graffiti: Sleep Deprivation is a form of torture – just ask any mom.
Brick Wall

And just what am I doing? Well! I am staring at the wall with weepy eyes and thinking about propping myself up by leaning up against it and I am disappointed because I would so much rather be doing just about anything else than coughing and coughing and coughing.

I cannot clearly evaluate but I feel as though this is too big an obstacle in my goal of being the healthiest I have ever been in the next 10 months of my life….why now? ….I will certainly try to figure out this snag in my journey, but I must sit down now and secure myself next to the wall for support and try to get some sleep.

Did you ever have to miss the party when you were ill? How did you work it through? What lesson did you learn? How do you work your self around a wall built in your forward motion?

I really need some help here…so I am looking forward to your ideas and comments.

14 Responses to “Look Boss! De Wall! De Wall!”

  1. Vered - MomGrind Says:

    Patricia, I am so sorry!

    I hope you get well soon.

    Sometimes we do have to miss parties. It’s important to take care of ourselves.

    Hugs.

  2. Patricia Says:

    Wow Vered, I sure do appreciate your words…today I am caught in working at not “beating myself up” for not being able to think clearly….and having no energy…
    My friend Barbara called me this morning and I so appreciated a human voice….
    I am attempting to just focus and heal myself.
    Thank you for your sympathy…I needed connection
    I keep going to your site to laugh over the lacy pants..!
    Laughter is good medicine too :)

    Patricias last blog post..Look Boss! De Wall! De Wall!

  3. Barbara Swafford Says:

    Hi Patircia – My heart goes out to you. There’s nothing worse than being sick when we have so much on our plates. I pray your medication helps and you can stop coughing.

    In the meantime, get your rest, follow doctors orders and know we’ll all be here when you’re well.

    Have no fear, my Blog Registry won’t close, so your entry has no deadline.

    Thanks for the link love. That’s just like you, sharing the cyberspace love when you should be resting. You rock!

    Barbara Swaffords last blog post..Promote Your Blog On The Blog Registry

  4. Patricia Says:

    Barbara,
    You all are keeping me going and laughing at myself. I find I can get on the computer for about 30 minutes at a time before the headache returns and I go blind….reading and commenting is easier than writing right now…I am bothered by how confused my thinking is with this illness…

    Glad to know the registry does not close – that is reassuring

    Wanted my readers to have some quality reading to do so I don’t have to try to co ordinate my thoughts…

    Always , Always a pleasure to discover your comments and good thoughts. Thank you

    Patricias last blog post..Look Boss! De Wall! De Wall!

  5. Evelyn Lim Says:

    It’s my first time on your blog and I’m sorry to learn that you’ve got pneumonia and are actually quite ill. Well, I wish you a speedy recovery! I’m going to check around your site for your other posts.

    Take care,
    Evelyn

    Evelyn Lims last blog post..Can You Read My Mind?

  6. Mitch Says:

    I’m lucky to say that I’ve rarely been sick, but in the past I have run into the brick wall of depression. Sometimes we just have to let it run its course and wait for a little bit of eroding of the wall before we can break through.

    Mitchs last blog post..Johnny The Bagger

  7. Patricia Says:

    Evelyn,
    Welcome, welcome. I have been having trouble moderating my site today, but my good techie is back from class and problem resolved.
    I am feeling better after 6 hours of direct sleep last night with no coughing!….thank you for leaving a comment and I hope you found some thing to read on my blog in your look around?
    I have been to your site a couple of time from your comments on Blogging without a Blog – Barbara’s site but have not left a comment for awhile. You write very well. Thank you for you good information.
    Hope you will come back and visit again.

    Patricias last blog post..Look Boss! De Wall! De Wall!

  8. Patricia Says:

    Mitch,
    Thank you for making a comment and welcome to this blog. I thank you for responding to my email and hope that things are looking up for you today. I will certainly look up your book reference – colour for part of the healing process just seems a superb idea to work from – like laughter.
    Getting a good nights healing rest has certainly eroded some of my wall today…good image to focus on..Thank you

    Patricias last blog post..Look Boss! De Wall! De Wall!

  9. Dr. Cason Says:

    This may sound silly..or not.

    Settle down. In a sweet bed with some clean sheets and pull the covers way up and give yourself permission to just sleep.

    Give yourself permission to heal and then when you’re rested just read. For fun. Dive into a good story. Forget the blog and writing that inspiring perfect post. When your eyes get sleepy again, close them and dream.

    You owe it to yourself to treat yourself as kindly as you would anyone else.

    I just finished The Shack and I’m moving on to another good story. It has done wonders for my creativity!

    Dr. Casons last blog post..One Step Forward Two Steps Back

  10. Dot Says:

    My first visit also, and I’m so sorry you were that sick. I’m glad you’re starting to recover, though. I’ve had pneumonia twice in my life and it was awful. One of those times, I was pretty sure I would have died if I hadn’t forced myself to drag myself to the doctor. But even then, it wasn’t bacterial AND viral. Phew! Hope you stay healthy from here on.

    Dots last blog post..Weird Tip Tuesday – Smelly Feet

  11. Patricia Says:

    Dr. Cason,
    I am attempting to do just that – and the weather outside has promoted just sitting moments and looking at the beautiful leaves – I am just amazed at my self-talk, it is so negative. I am amazed at all the wee crises that pop up with each tissue from the box…and I am just an amazingly amount of angry that I went away for self-care and rest and came home so ill….What is this all about?

    Have book group discussion tonight and the Dr. says I can attend with no chance of infecting anyone…how healing is a good book?
    What a great prescription. thank you

    Patricias last blog post..The Ants Go Marching 10 by 10

  12. Patricia Says:

    Dot,
    Welcome, I sure did enjoy reading your blog in between coughing, Pneumonia is a very interesting ailment and I am amazed at all the tricks it plays on one’s thinking.
    I believe I have started in recovery mode, but I surely do hate being ill.
    We will meet up at the Mommy Farm and take the cure! Thank you for your comments – I don’t think anyone will catch any germs blogging!

    Patricias last blog post..The Ants Go Marching 10 by 10

  13. Davina Says:

    Hi Patricia. I’m sorry that you are ill and that I only just noticed your link this instant. Thanks, BTW.

    I hope you are on the mend. Don’t be too hard on yourself or try to force things. Just relax. Here is a portion of a quote I love… “…if life is dragging you back with difficulties, be patient. It is getting ready to launch you to greater heights.”

    Be gentle with yourself. You’ll bounce back bigger and better.

    Davinas last blog post..25 Words That Connect Us — Frosty Sunrise

  14. Patricia Says:

    Davina,
    Thank you for your nice words and coming ’round to see me! I am feeling much better today – though not much energy and I sound terrible. Enjoying our beautiful fall sunshine today! and just taking life one step at a time….I posted my 100th post on Wednesday and that was exciting and got a new subscriber today! things are looking up
    I love quotes they are so motivating to me…and this is a particularly good one for me…Thank you for sharing: “…if life is dragging you back with difficulties, be patient. It is getting ready to launch you to greater heights.”

    Patricias last blog post..The Ants Go Marching 10 by 10