Every year I pick a NEW word to focus on as a guide to how I approach my endeavors and to hopefully become a better person. This year the new word is not coming; nothing is resonating. I thought my word was going to be Happiness, because I have a number of books to review with happiness in the title, and yet I have found this not to be the one – I think it was the real word for last year.
I also pick a Native American Animal Guide for the year and I do that on Epiphany which was January 6th this year. I did a workshop on that day and I think assisted several folks in discovering their word and Spirit Guide. It was very fun. My guide turned out to be DOG in the contrary, which means I am loyal and trustworthy and an incredible supporter of other people ( like being a counselor, clergy, listener, guide, or caregiver.) In the contrary position though, it means I need to work on being my own best friend. I took an action right away that opened the door to feeling better about myself and my work/ history and enabled me to let go of some hard feelings – instantly.
I discovered that I do indeed need something NEW in my life and I focused on looking from the ground up. How did I start each day? What are my habits? What is my thinking, and how do I respond? Right away I discovered how much I like the feeling of waking up on my own – coming to the day without alarms or buzzers or bells and whistles. I like feeling the cozy sheets, feeling safe and extending my toes and shifting my feet before I even open my eyes. I like feeling ready to be aware, and the word JOY kept popping into my head. I changed a habit right then and there; I now do not run over all the tasks which must be completed on this new day, instead I think of 5 things that I am grateful for – even if ZIP is wanting his breakfast and to go out.
This new exercise was feeling very good to me and I thought if I just started changing my habits who knows what will pop into my circle. So the next thing I did was not write for a whole week. I still went on my meditation dog walk first thing after dressing, but I did not sit down to write right away after that. I did not open my journal at all during this week. I did not bring up a blank sheet on the computer. Now, I am going to try different 3 hour slots of time during the day and night to write; a week at a time. Change a habit, this was a dramatic move but it broke down a boundary in my thinking and my actions. How else could I use this new discovery?
Then my friend Kathie posted this little riddle poem on Facebook.
Food for Thought…
I am your constant companion.
I am your greatest asset or heaviest burden.
I will push you up to success or down to disappointment.
I am at your command.
Half the things you do might just as well be turned over to me.
For I can do them quickly, correctly and profitably.
I am easily managed; just be firm with me.
Those who are great, I have made great.
Those who are failures, I have made failures.
I am not a machine, though I work with the precision of a
machine and the intelligence of a person.
You can run me for profit, or you can run me for ruin.
Show me how you want it done. Educate me. Train me.
Lead me. Reward me.
And I will then…do it automatically.
I am your servant.
Who am I?
I am a habit.
And I was empowered even more. Rather than try a resolution, or picking a goal, or a word, I am going to change my habits, one by one and see where this leads me. Hopefully to be a better person and one with some NEW thinking that assists the more authentic self to emerge.
I made a list of all the habits I could muster and I put them in my journal; some are very small such as moving the stool by my closet to over by the window. I did not find this very convenient, but it did open me up to being thankful that I have natural light in my closet and to know that a quick glance at the weather was enough to make a decision about my walk.
Maybe my new word is HABIT or maybe it is CHANGE? What is your focus for the New Year? Did you make resolutions, did you pick a word, or did you start a new class or activity? What works for you?
I have been asked to do a book review on the 31st of this month – so I will be changing my posting schedule a bit too. Very neat book about happiness!