For several years I have known that I need to let go of one of my business adventures. In February of 2012 I read a series of quotes in the borders on the Passing Thru Newsletter about the importance of quitting what is not working and how that opens the window to the fresh air of possibilities.
Betsy and Pete Wuebker were all systems forward with building their own business and setting sail to a new life adventure and they were exploring what steps they had taken to un-tether and cast off.
This is the first quote on the side bar:
Ever wonder why’s it so darn hard to quit something, even though we know it’s not working? Often we cite security, or we point to what’s expected of us, or the boundaries of our comfort zone keep us locked in our current location. We look beyond our self-imposed fence, but we stop short of climbing over it to freedom awaiting.
Truthfully, I knew those words were for me and yet for the first time in my life I just seemed to be sliding into taking action, it was as though the cameras were recording in extreme slow motion – there was motion.
I had to take a long hard look, again and again, to decide what to do and as the choice was obvious the facts just kept rolling into the inbox.
The Vitamin and Environmentally Healthy products store that I had been working with for 16 years was losing me money, cheapening their products – calling it improving, and transforming into a GREED machine. The founder of the company was donating money into the political realm, personal funds and then company funds (Citizen’s United Supreme Court Decision) in a millions of dollars way and getting noticed by the news media. He was using the legal system to bully a segment of our society and truly making life miserable for a group of human beings; attacking the victim’s families also. There was not a great deal of wellness being spread around.
Now my efforts with this company had brought a great deal of wellness into our home. I no longer had to boil the sheets every day to keep the mold and dust mites at bay. Bodies that found nutrients difficult to absorb were getting healthy results. (My 65 year old partner came in at age 38 at last year’s Insurance Physical! – He is also a bicycle riding phenom! Who has his own Gluten Free cook.)
My paycheck paid the family health insurance premiums for years and lots of soccer, tennis, swimming, theater and camps. I consistently made a difference.
Last year this business work and my blogs cost us $7,000.00.
I could not persuade any of my clients to take up the business model and do what I was doing, I got stuck.
So May 22, 2012, I became an official quitter. I signed the paperwork and gave up. I was responsible to each of my customers and let them know why and when I was leaving.
The worry is already gone, though with nothing to replace this income stream, the solar panels are breaking even, I feel a bit like a blob of inertia at this moment.
It can be heartbreaking to realize that the thing that you’ve poured your blood, sweat and tears into isn’t working. But a realistic assessment requires that we be honest with ourselves. We can either change what we’re doing within the current framework we’ve created, or step “out of the box” into a new paradigm that offers the potential of greater rewards. If you’re feeling stuck, facing change may require mustering every ounce of courage you have (and even some you don’t). But we’re here to tell you, making a change is something you must do if you’re ever to have a chance for a meaningful and happy life.
I am visualizing and reading my affirmation about the successful payoff of our medical loan and that I am monthly able to pay my phone bill. It was the right decision and that indeed I am lucky in that I have had a very meaningful life with integrity the shining star. I am still reading my many books a week and writing reviews and I always have a number of things to do. It does make me happy as does letting go of the many hours of effort and energy expended.
My best often used quote:
It’s all going to work out just give it some time.
Have you had to quit something to move forward? Were you able to feel happy about the choice? Was it sequential or cold turkey quitting?
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