Integration of Ideas
First thing this morning, I fell asleep during my prayer and meditation time, next I opened all the cupboards in the kitchen in search of stimulating foods, then I paid a couple of bills and started my laundry. It was raining too hard for a walk. I stared at the computer monitor for nearly 20 minutes and I know why I did all these distractions. Sometime yesterday, all the pieces of the questions integrated into the big picture. I know that once I have seen and studied the big picture I cannot go back. I am free to wander back and forth through the doorway, but I am not able to stay on the historic side. I have moved on and I am surveying the landscape but have not taken the first step. Writing this morning is the first steps.
This is a giant thing I have integrated and my steps are tentative and not balanced or coordinated. I received several confirmations that what I was experiencing was true and that indeed I had made a leap of faith and landed on solid ground.
One question that I was asking was why are “they” attacking women’s issues and women’s health. The “they” being conservative politicians. It is primarily because it looks like they are balancing the budget by taking irresponsible, loose women off the agenda and forcing them to be responsible, also if they can keep women fighting with other women they can go about their agenda and women will not notice what is going and focus on the controversy. That is one of the oldest tricks in the playbook – keep them distracted by fighting with each other.
You might want to peruse TIME’s 16 Notorious Powerful Women
Another question surfacing is why are the folks who created the biggest budget deficient in history, loudly proclaiming that “It’s all about the budget?” This just makes me take a bigger look at what is going on with the budget and the people’s money. As far as I can tell, it is not anything about the budget, it is all about paying the price for taking so much corporate money to get into power and the promises made to achieve the perceived powerful reference point. The Supreme Court already gave corporations more power than individuals and Wall Street is once again running its own show – bypassing the new regulations, why would they be yelling about budgets? Distraction. It is because folks have heard about budgets during their whole lives, but most of them do not know how to use them and count on others to take care of it. Economics is hard to understand. The people are made to feel like they did something very naughty and now they must pay the price. Bring on the taxes because Bad Behavior is not to be rewarded. We deserve this.
Since most of the teachers are women attacking the teacher’s union, schools and rights was a fairly huge mistake. I was so happy to see that the people responded and spoke loudly and clearly – you may not have our rights. Were there enough people watching? Understanding? It is particularly important now that we understand that is was not about balancing the budget, but it was about taking away millions of dollars from schools, teachers, and power from unions in order to give corporations more millions of dollars in tax breaks. The public outcry produced the researchers doing their homework and getting out the word. Now I had an answer to why these states’ Governors were being so foolish, and I was relieved to see that at least one is denied access.
Then to top it off I am seeing the fear machine working overtime to keep turmoil going and more and more individuals being demonized into the OTHER .
So here am I on the first day of Lent, with a 40 day carbon fast lined up, and my spiritual practices lined up and the disciplines of my routine in order and I am still avoiding understanding what my actions need to be. I feel a tremendous responsibility because I can see the big picture. What is my next step? Steps?
My Father understood what was going on over 50 years ago and he watched carefully the empire building in South America and the disastrous takeovers in Poland and Eastern Europe. He saw how it played out in education circles and human lives. He hungered for discussions and was always teaching me to listen and think. He felt education was the key. One cannot allow themselves to think that these actions do not involve me, because we are all one and the same on one planet.
Never stop learning, endure the heat of the desert, always listen, trust yourself and the next steps will be revealed.
When do you know you are avoiding? How do you take responsibility for your knowledge and actions? Will you take action? Do you Confront? Educate? Or Reward?
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