I am making some big changes in my life. I am healing some internal organs and getting in the best and healthiest shape of my life.
Currently I am stuck, if I were dieting one might say I am on a plateau, but I am not dieting I am changing my lifestyle and my thinking. Yes! I am hoping that by losing 80 pounds some of the problems I am having will diminish; that is one aspect of the change.
3 pair of my summer pants will not button at the waist.
3 times I have fallen down when walking and not been able to get up by myself.
3 instances I have been lumped together with a person who is someone I do not wish to be.
I found myself swirling around in my emotions and being very hostile to myself in my inner dialogue. I knew I could not achieve my change if I kept rattling around letting the sets of 3s control my thinking.
I got out my copy of The Dark Side of the Light Chasers by Debbie Ford. This is a wonderful workbook that allows one to look at the positive side of our shadow self and discover how the darker thoughts truly assist us in keeping one on track with their goals and desires. I have been doing the exercises at the end of each chapter in my journal and writing after meditation each morning.
My summer pants will not fit because my body is still thinking it is protecting me from a saber tooth tiger, so the round waist is telling me that internal organs are not healed yet and I need to keep on keeping on – because the pants zip now and the buttoning will come.
I am falling down because when I push too hard on my walk to get back up to speed, my body is saying I am under attack and the nerve endings are still inflamed –“ Stop what you are doing, we are not healed enough for this pressure.”
Being lumped together with a person I do not wish to be like, makes me figure out how I am like her and when I clarify my feelings and my behaviors, it too becomes an early warning devise and enables me to make some smaller changes which will benefit my progress.
I may have lost a few calories ranting and raving about being stuck, I could have gotten depressed and done nothing, whereas now I have made about 7 smaller changes that I believe will act as stepping stones to get unstuck.
It is very similar to a pruning job that needed to get accomplished. We knew our Evergreen Clematis was not thriving and when we went to exam it, we found it needed a hard pruning and some fertilizer. As we started pruning we were amazed at all the dead leaves clogging up the plants progress and hindering the blooming and survival.
Examining the dark side of the situation gave us an opportunity to give light and air making us prune even harder. New growth has already started and the beautiful vine is coming back to life, and someone said we will get a second bloom because we took such good care.
I feel the same way, as concerned as I was about looking clearly at the negative, I gave it light, and although there were some compacted feelings, when I did the exercises I was able to free the tangle. I was able to discover how helpful these potentially painful items could become giving me solutions and new directions of movement. I was afraid and worried about those feelings and examining them, and am now de- lighted that I took the time – I was relieved.
One of the most important parts of healing for me is learning to relax. Gaining this knowledge truly took the worry away and provided more time to relax and move forward.
I see that Debbie Ford, Deepak Chopra, and Marianne Williamson just have a new book out on this very subject The Shadow Effect.
Are there things that keep you from looking at the dark side? Have you ever found that the dark thing is not as bad as you expected when you challenged it? Do you have any tricks for getting unstuck?
Looking forwards to your greatly appreciated comments
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