I took a little quiz on Facebook this week. It was in a moment when I was working at not eating and attempting to distract myself from the muscle spasms in my back and legs.
My musical personality is a Dissonant Chord – probably a V chord. I really like the number 5 and it works well with me. A Dissonant Chord makes people uncomfortable until they take action – find resolution. Yep that is me! I just pop out with statements that people’s first thoughts are, “no that cannot be right, or “where did you hear that?”
I have figured out I did not hear it or read it or understand it from just that moment; rather the statement usually is one of my super fast integrated thoughts intrigued by something that was just said. It could be that the statement is something that was 20 years in the making.
Definitely more people like me on my blog and my writing than in person. This used to worry me, but I got over it and feel just fine and rather unique because of it. Fear is a task master for some.
I liked how the little, concise personality read and the more I thought about it the more satisfied I was with this twitter sized analysis.
I have now been in my desert experience for nearly 40 days, about 10 left to complete the mission.
I have not lost the 40 pounds I wish to loose and I did give in and take this new medication for 10 days; it had 2 full, typed pages of side effects. I had nearly every one of the side effects and have been absolutely overwhelmed by the experience, which I knew would not work in the first place.
My Doctor was so sure she had figured it out and this pill would make it all better. My motivation for taking the pill was to please her – The devil made me do it!
I finished the Money Course I was taking and really it is exactly how I already use money, which was affirming, but did not help my partner to develop a connection with me over money. He still just says: “we can’t spend any money right now – especially on food” (Read that tersely).
The course was distracting and I should not have finished it as I figured out it was not what I needed, but I chose to remain distracted – another temptation indulged.
I have given up sugar and nearly all carbohydrates and so far have been successful with that experience. I must confess to 2 major infractions: I sipped one can of warm Cola Soda on the day that the nausea (side effects) was overwhelming and had a piece of dry 9 grain bread before I attempted to go to sleep and then the day my daughter made Oatmeal raisin cookies I had 5 and felt fabulous!
I take full responsibility for those actions!
Medical sheet says it takes 4 to 7 days for the medication to leave your system. I think I might lead the parade, raise the flag and take giant steps.
I enjoyed being able to walk today around the Lake in the rain. Soon I will leave this desert; I still have more to do while I am here.
What kind of chord or musical sound/instrument are you?
How do others hear you?
Are you on a pilgrimage or working a desert experience? How are you doing?
Looking forward to your comments.
Please do not forget the writing contest. The entries are starting to trickle in and they are really special.