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Dissonant Chord

I took a little quiz on Facebook this week. It was in a moment when I was working at not eating and attempting to distract myself from the muscle spasms in my back and legs.

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My musical personality is a Dissonant Chord – probably a V chord. I really like the number 5 and it works well with me. A Dissonant Chord makes people uncomfortable until they take action – find resolution. Yep that is me! I just pop out with statements that people’s first thoughts are, “no that cannot be right, or “where did you hear that?”

I have figured out I did not hear it or read it or understand it from just that moment; rather the statement usually is one of my super fast integrated thoughts intrigued by something that was just said. It could be that the statement is something that was 20 years in the making.

Definitely more people like me on my blog and my writing than in person. This used to worry me, but I got over it and feel just fine and rather unique because of it. Fear is a task master for some.

I liked how the little, concise personality read and the more I thought about it the more satisfied I was with this twitter sized analysis.

I have now been in my desert experience for nearly 40 days, about 10 left to complete the mission.

I have not lost the 40 pounds I wish to loose and I did give in and take this new medication for 10 days; it had 2 full, typed pages of side effects. I had nearly every one of the side effects and have been absolutely overwhelmed by the experience, which I knew would not work in the first place.

My Doctor was so sure she had figured it out and this pill would make it all better. My motivation for taking the pill was to please her – The devil made me do it!

I finished the Money Course I was taking and really it is exactly how I already use money, which was affirming, but did not help my partner to develop a connection with me over money. He still just says: “we can’t spend any money right now – especially on food” (Read that tersely).

The course was distracting and I should not have finished it as I figured out it was not what I needed, but I chose to remain distracted – another temptation indulged.

I have given up sugar and nearly all carbohydrates and so far have been successful with that experience. I must confess to 2 major infractions: I sipped one can of warm Cola Soda on the day that the nausea (side effects) was overwhelming and had a piece of dry 9 grain bread before I attempted to go to sleep and then the day my daughter made Oatmeal raisin cookies I had 5 and felt fabulous!

I take full responsibility for those actions!

Medical sheet says it takes 4 to 7 days for the medication to leave your system. I think I might lead the parade, raise the flag and take giant steps.

I enjoyed being able to walk today around the Lake in the rain. Soon I will leave this desert; I still have more to do while I am here.

What kind of chord or musical sound/instrument are you?
How do others hear you?
Are you on a pilgrimage or working a desert experience? How are you doing?

Looking forward to your comments.


Please do not forget the writing contest. The entries are starting to trickle in and they are really special.


14 Responses to “Dissonant Chord”

  1. Mark Says:

    Interesting introspection, thanks for sharing. Remember to acknowledge all of the good that you have done in the last 30 days and don’t get locked on what didn’t go as planned.

    Marks last blog post..Is Your Journey One That You Are Enduring or One That is Joyful?

  2. Liara Covert Says:

    Patricia, you engage in meaningful initiatives that inspire your blog readers.

    Quizzes like the one you describe encourage a person to label the self. Labels prevent detaching from conditioned identity. A person is not what society dictates. Who you really are has nothing to do with any name or label. A person has opportunities to rediscover the truth inside oneself. The inner voice of pure love and compassion does not echo ego. This love wavelength or energy vibration offers infinite insight. Every decision you make brings you to deeper self-understanding.

    Liara Coverts last blog post..7 Points of universal reflection

  3. Patricia Says:

    Mark,
    Thank you for your comments – always appreciated. I keep a gratitude journal and every night before I go to sleep I focus on all the moments of gratitude- I believe this is why I never have trouble sleeping.

    Liara,
    Thank you for you wise words today, I was not hoping to label myself in a big way, but rather to jog myself into a new thinking mode – the little quiz gave me some thinking time along a different pathway. Self understanding is an important skill.

  4. Vered - MomGrind Says:

    I don’t think I could ever give up carbs. You should be proud of yourself.

    Vered – MomGrinds last blog post..Suffering For Beauty

  5. Patricia Says:

    Vered,
    They even want me to give up all the fruit I eat…no way! I draw the line – whole organic fruit is good carbs.

  6. Dot Says:

    Sorry to hear about your muscle cramps. A “desert experience”? Does not sound fun. I don’t think I could ever give up carbs either. I’m guess you did lose weight, just not the huge amount, 40 lbs., you expected to lose in how long? Doesn’t sound healthy to lose that much in less than 20 weeks.

    Dots last blog post..Silva CDs 7 and 8

  7. Patricia Says:

    Dot,
    I was trying to loose the 40 pounds over the year August 2008- August 2009. On this new medication, I gained 18 pounds in 10 days. It is now coming off. The desert experience is a subtle, maybe too subtle, reference to the 40 days Jesus spent in the desert in prayer and temptation….Lenten experience.
    I am glad you dropped by, You always help me to think with more clarity – I am appreciative.

  8. Henie Says:

    Oh, Patricia…I am so proud to read about your accomplishments!

    Keep the faith, as I know you do, to accomplish the rest! :~)

    It reminds me of a quote that goes something like this:

    “It’s not the mountain ahead of you that keeps your from your journey…it’s the sand in your shoe.” (or something like that!)

    Henies last blog post..Life Is Like A Door

  9. Patricia Says:

    Henie,
    I like your version of the quote very much! thank you for coming by – I keep thinking about the orange car door

  10. Barb Hartsook Says:

    I love to take tests… personality, IQ, whatever is offered. What I don’t like is that the questions they ask require more than a scaled response, and there’s no provision for actually answering them. So of course, the results aren’t really accurate. They hint…

    What I do like about them is how many colors and styles and sounds of validity there are. We’re ALL valid! Whether fifths or fourths or sevenths — it’s all part of the symphony and only gets resolved in concert with others, toward the end.

    Meanwhile, we all play our music and find the beauty in it.

    I wish you well, would send you magnesium for your muscles, and lots of clear water to flush out the meds. No coffee for you! :)

    Barb

    Barb Hartsooks last blog post..Snowy Track Meets Take Me Back to the Old Days

  11. Jannie Funster Says:

    “Definitely more people like me on my blog and my writing than in person,” Such an interesting, honest and revealing statement, Patricia. I think we all get to be a little more of who we really want to be in our writings / blogs than in person, as we have time to formulate our thoughts. And keep the dust bunnies off our jpegs.

    What kind of chord or musical sound/instrument are you?
    How do others hear you?

    Me, probably a mix of flute and bowed bass – sweetest highs and saddest lows. And I’m definitely a major 7th chord! A basic triad with a little je-ne-said-quoi thrown in to surprise people.

    Are you on a pilgrimage or working a desert experience? How are you doing?

    Me, I am “getting it done,” thanks to people like you. That time you asked meon my blog, “How do you share your music,” really jump-started me in way that I am forever grateful to you for. Yep!

    xo

    Jannie Funsters last blog post..Potential Regalements

  12. Jannie Funster Says:

    Oh, and I’m with Vered on the carbs. LOVE THEM.

    Jannie Funsters last blog post..Potential Regalements

  13. Patricia Says:

    Barb,
    Thank you for dropping by and yes I am taking lots of magnesium and water – also milk thistle is helping a great deal.

    Yesterday I tried on a Chinese Medical Intuitive’s Therapy and I am nearly pain free this morning. It was fascinating to learn all these new – old things. I had so much energy rushing around in me last night I tried to write on someone’s blog and only confused them and myself. I went for a run instead!

    I do so like the little “hints” projected by those quizzes and they make good conversation starters.

  14. Patricia Says:

    Jannie,
    Love the carbs and the music and the flute and bass.
    Jannie, I try to make Lent and Advent a spiritual experience time in my year, I spend more time on meditation and healing things than I do at other times of the year. I find I get more focus and clarity in my life.
    Now that we are at Eastertide, I will emerge from reflection and self care – roll away the stones/rocks in my life and head and emerge – hopefully to bloom into the next season.
    The torn muscle is finally healing – this is such a relief.
    Always a delight to find you here.